Today's Texture Tuesday theme is "Open," which just so happened to be my word of the year in 2011.
There are as many ways to express this word as there are meanings, but this is one of my favorite quotes by Anais Nin that I (and everyone else) have used again and again. Flowers are the perfect metaphor for becoming open, so I decided to go this route.
I was blessed with a second blooming of my Christmas amaryllis, so I captured it with my camera in the golden morning light. I added three of Kim's textures to it: Friday, Edward, and Zuzu. The use of these textures , some Topaz Labs magic, and masking out the background gave this image a little French postcard type effect, that I think Nin would have loved.
The other day I was reading back through journal entries related to my word of the year last year (Open) and the prior year (Balance), and here's a little excerpt:
Let yourself be open and life will be easier. A spoon of salt in a glass of water makes the water undrinkable. A spoon of salt in a lake is almost unnoticed.” (Hindu Prince Gautama Siddharta, the founder of Buddhism, 563-483 B.C.)
Last year, I chose the word "balance." I would like to say that I achieved balance successfully, but keeping a balance in my life has been the holy grail of my existence and is therefore an ongoing challenge. However, I did find that just the act of being mindful of a word can have a positive influence on the choices one makes from day to day and I can honestly say that my life at the end of 2010 was more balanced than it had been before.
If nothing else, my balance goal brought to the fore all the ways my life was not so balanced. Issues that had been tugging at my sleeve for attention changed tactics and launched a full on assault. 2010 was a tough roller-coaster ride of a year, and I can't say that I'm sorry to see it go.
I've come to realize great deal of my suffering does come from feeling as though none of my well laid plans are working out the way I wanted. Welcome to my mid-life crisis. By needing life to be a certain way, I'm perpetually viewing that proverbial glass as half full.
The opening quote reminds me that in my world view, I don't have to limit myself to a glass. I can dump that glass of water into the larger body of possibilities and the little set backs or sour points that may get thrown into the mix are barely perceptible in the bigger context of all that is there for me.
As I watch my most deeply cherished dreams dissolve into the murky depths, is it possible that they are not disappearing at all? Perhaps they are just assuming their rightful place in the grander scheme of things - the big stuff I'm missing because I'm trying to fit it all into the glass in front of me.
At present, I have no answers to any of these questions. I'm living in the question right now and doing my best to fearlessly dump everything into the drink and just float awhile.
That is pretty much what I did and it seems that I'm continuing to do so even though I have a new word and a new focus that is about narrowing down and eliminating those activities that don't serve the grander purpose.
Even lakes have boundaries, I've learned.