Last week, Kim Klassen posed the question "are you living fully? or are you living frantically?" My answer is... yes.
My life is exceedingly full these days and the pace is frantic and I often find I spend less time doing the things I'd really like to be doing and more time doing the things that don't add value to my life and even my sentences are run on... Whew.
As I was driving to work this morning, the exhaustion in my body was overwhelming. Although not in danger of falling asleep at the wheel, I day dreamed about crawling under the covers and just letting go for awhile. Since that wasn't a possibilty, I queued up book I'd downloaded from my long expired Audible.com subscription and became immersed in a book and started to feel somewhat better. Maybe it was the coffee finally kicking in, or maybe it was just a boost from the intellectual stimulation.
Whatever the case, with my long commute, audible books are a great solution for getting more "reading" in. Reading is one of those things that I want to be doing more of and am either too exhausted or distracted by my iPad when I get home to do so.
So, step one is to reactivate my subscription and my first download will Danielle LaPorte's The Firestarter Sessions which Kim recommended to us.
Since what it is that I'm doing to bring balance and sanity to my routine is not working, maybe its time to consider something different. One of LaPorte's key ideas is that "balance is a myth." Ok, I'm listening.
After I listen, I will no doubt report back here.
Today's image is of the much photographed "Super Moon" of May 5th. If you've followed my blog from the beginning, you know I can't resist a good full moon shot - even if they all pretty much look a like. I missed a good opportunity to photograph it from a wonderful vantage point low on the horizon, if only I had my 300mm lens with me.
We were leaving my mom's 50th year class reunion where I was volunteering my services as the event photographer just as the moon was rising. It was glorious and my dad suggested we go to the overlook which has a beautiful lake view. But, I didn't have the right equipment with me, so we decided to go home. In hindsight, it would have been nice to go have a look anyway. We should have done that. I don't know why we didn't except that somewhere in my head, somehow the only reason to go out of my way to gaze at the moon is to photograph it. It would have almost killed me to look at that beautiful spectacle and not capture it. How dumb is that?
The weekend was actually full of things I loved to do. Friday night, I enjoyed attending an Art Crawl with my photography friend who is organizing the picturemorphun gallery, and Saturday morning I met with my journaling group. By the time Sunday morning rolled around, with tons of photos to process and being plum wore out, I wasn't sure I could even make it to church. But, I did go and I was glad.
I stopped by Wolf Camera and picked up a copy of the group shot I ordered online through RitzPix.com. After, a brief visit with mom to get her approval, I went straight home and slept all afternoon. No blogging, no reading, no grocery shopping, no laundry.
Another Monday morning started from behind the proverbial eight-ball. I'm not sure I need a firestarter session or not, as I seem to be more or less burned out.
I think I may be on the verge of a breakthrough rather than a breakdown. It is not always easy to tell the difference, but time will tell :)