For the past few months I've been giving my home a little extra TLC and invested more time and money into feathering my nest.
So many things have been untended to and projects suspended in the past few years for a variety of reasons, not the least of which was the uncertainty of where my relationship was headed and hoping that home building would be a joint project - either here or somewhere to be determined.
Now that issue is resolved, I'm settling in and moving forward with my life, which includes the home life I've been neglecting and missing. Truth be told, it was wrong of me to put my life on hold like that. So that one's all on me, but it is a mistake I don't intend to make again.
When I bought my home, it was solid but in serious need of a facelift as today's images will attest. Ever since I discovered Metamorphosis Monday linkup at Between Naps on the Porch I've been looking forward to participating. I really liked the way the afternoon sun was falling on this section of my living room Saturday, so I decided to take a picture and share my mini-metamorphosis.
I dug out a few before images with a film camera and tucked away, and scanned them in for these before and after shots. Looks like my photography has improved as well.
Also around the house, I'm paying special attention to flowers. Flowers outside...
And making sure I have some fresh flowers inside...
By the way, dad also helped me install an irrigation system on my deck to water all my containers. What a time saver that is going to be!
As enjoyable as my weekend at home in my cozy feathered nest was, it also felt like it was missing something - or someone. As I sat out on my porch Saturday night, with music softly playing, wine and tiki's flickring it was such a romantic setting. It did make me feel a bit more lonesome that I like to admit publically. I'm so not ready to bring anyone into my life, but I do sometimes wonder if it is a dream I should just give up on.
It makes me think of Francis Mayes in the movie Under the Tuscan Sun
, who spent all her money and energy renovating an Italian villa after going through a difficult divorce. Many times she questioned why she was building a home for a life she wamted but didn't have (i.e. a with a husband and family). But, this line provides the perfect reason...
What are four walls, anyway? They are what they contain. The house protects the dreamer. Unthinkably good things can happen, even late in the game. It's such a surprise
So, yea, that's what all this about I suppose. I'm building a shelter and refuge for the dreamer. Inside these four walls I'll dream my dreams and keep the flames of hope alive. And maybe if I build it, he (whoever he is) will come. At least that's the way it happened in the movie.
If not, well, I will have a home I enjoy and a home life that sustains and protects me. And who knows, even though its late in the game I might still be in for a surprise.
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