Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Flower Art Finale - To Everything There is a Season

The journey continues

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves. ~Victor Frankl


Sometimes I think I chose the wrong word for this year.

My word was calling, and while being mindful of that word has opened my eyes to many new and promising possibilities, the overarching theme of the year can be summed up in one word.  Change.

When I began blogging a little over a year ago, my primary motivation was to connect with others through photography.  I was going through some "stuff" and in finding an unexpected refuge in photography I also discovered solace in communing with others who were doing the same. In particular I was drawn to the Shutter Sisters community message and mission.

This intention to connect was fulfilled quickly as blogging introduced me to an even wider web of photographers/bloggers who seemed to run in the same circles.  Most of them were women but I also met some fine gentlemen as well.  Through various memes, linkups, and challenges the circle grew larger and larger.

The journey into community came full circle when I finally met Tracey Clark, founder of the Shutter Sisters and the rest of the sisters at Oasis just a couple of weeks ago. 

The leaves had already begun to change and fall when I traveled to what was a  literal Oasis of Summer right in the middle of Autumn.   When I returned to my everyday "real" life here in Tennessee, the landscape of my world was also in the process of changing in many ways beyond the bare branches and leaf strewn paths. 

I was facing an office move shortly after my return from Oasis, and as the Director of Operations for my company, this move involved more of my attention than just packing up my desk.  I wanted to share more about my experience, but I was thrust into a whirlwind of long exhausting days with little energy to reflect much less write about it.

On the same day that we were set to move our offices, I got a cheerful call from my baby boy saying "Mamma, I'm officially out of the Marines."  I knew the call was coming, and I even knew the official date, but it was still a significant moment I will never forget.  Just this time last year, he was fighting in Afghanistan and I was reflecting here about the moment he said, "Mamma, I'm a Marine."

Of course, he'll always be a Marine as will his older brother. Once a Marine always a Marine. But for the first time in six years I will not have a child serving active duty. That's quite a shift.

And the fact that these two "changes" happened in the same day was more significant to me than one might think.

When I started the job I have today, I was still a single mom with two teenage boys at home.  The old office was the place where I went every day as I dealt with my first born child leaving the nest, and  then the next - both to the Marines.  It was where I occupied myself through two thirteen week boot camp experiences, and held it together through one Iraq and two Afghanistan deployments.

I saw all this change coming and yet it blindsided me as well. Even my daily commute has shifted significantly and all of a sudden it seems like I woke up in someone else's life.  This feeling is further fueled by the loss of my relationship earlier this year that pretty much obliterated a dearly held and long hoped for vision I had of the future.  The context of my work place also plays into my grieving process as my relationship played out from beginning to end against that backdrop.

I would never have imagined one year ago what my life looks like today.  Roll that back to seven years ago when I first walked through the doors of that old office building and I'm astounded at how differently everything turned out from what I expected.

That's neither bad nor good, really.  It just is.   I have faith that it will all work out for the best in the end. But, from where I stand right now there is a lot of soul level work that has to be done as I move into this next phase of my journey - sorting out what to take with me and what to leave behind.

To that end, I am here today to announce that I'm taking a hiatus from blogging.  I'm not sure when or if I'll come back to it, or in what form. It is not a decision to I came to easily as this experience has been so positive for me and it is hard to walk away from such an investment of time and energy.

But, concerns surrounding personal privacy and the privacy of others make this an inappropriate forum in which to sort it all out. Plus, I just need to refocus my energy right now and I need to create more breathing room.

Ultimately, my primary purpose of making connections through photography has been achieved and I invite you to stay in touch. You can email me at lthomas@photosbyleanne.net. I'd love to hear from you.


Before I go, I did not want to leave last week's Flower Art Friday winners hanging without their moment in the spotlight. We had some beautiful fall color in our gallery last week and the top three were simply stunning and a reminder that change can be glorious.

Thanks so much to all of you who made Flower Art Friday such a beautiful and bright spot in my week. You've inspired me so.

Birgitta



Mona



Tatjanas




Congratulations Winners! Here's your badge

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18 comments:

  1. Leanne , am so sorry to see that you are not going to be doing your blogging, but do , totally understand. You have put alot of your self in this, and everyone of your posts has been so well thought out. I hope that all goes well with you, and that your life may take some amazing new turns that even you cannot have envisioned. Blessings to you in the future.

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  2. I am also sad to see you go, but I get it! There is a lot of energy that is put into blogging and making connections, and that breathing space is very important. I wish you well and your two marines in this next phase of your journey!!

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  3. I'm going to miss you Leanne. Much. I'm sure you will be back one day after taking a well deserved bread. Take care!

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  4. As always, you have expressed yourself in a heartfelt manner, which is what attracts so many to follow you. Although I'm not particularly surprised that you find yourself at this juncture, and regardless of the fact that I have not been active in your link-ups however fun and gorgeous, I will miss having a place to visit that is/has always been put together with such great care.

    I am glad you are taking care of yourself and traveling inward to find whatever it is you are seeking and I know you will come out the other side perfectly. Take care, my friend.

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  5. I am sad to see you as I've only recently found you but I understand Blogging can be all consuming and sometimes a body needs to sit back and let everything flow around you until everything settles.Good luck on the next part of your journey.

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  6. You will be missed LeAnne! Thanks for hosting Flower Art Friday and introducing us to new bloggers from around the world! :)

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  7. I'm wishing you peace and happiness...I always enjoyed your posts. Sending you good thoughts!

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  8. Yes....you will be missed. Good luck and safe journey!
    Hugs
    SueAnn

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  9. Thank you for this time, it has been funny. Good luck!

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  10. Sorry to hear this...I will miss you. I had so much fun here. Many beautiful flower art I have seen here. Me on the top this last time also. Thank you. Wishing you all the best in the future. Hugs from Birgitta

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  11. Congrats to the winners. We will miss you Leanne.

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  12. LeAnne, wherever life takes you now, please know you made a difference with your stunning photography and beautiful words. You inspired each of us and I'm sure I'm not alone in thanking you for giving so much of yourself to us. May God be with you as you move into this next phase. Take care...and thank you!

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  13. Darn....I was just glad that you were back...and now you're gone. However, I'm sure it's the best for you. I wish you nothing but good days ahead.

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  14. And I will also miss you! I understand why you are doing this and will look forward to (hopefully) your return. Sending you peace and blessings...

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  15. LeAnne,
    I too just recently found your blog and learned so much from your candid expressing of your feelings, your ideas and your photos.
    Life has a way of turning corners. I hope that the next corner for you, offers you many blessings and much abundance.

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